Lately I’ve been missing home more than anything. I’ve finished university after three years and I’m going on to my masters degree next year. This summer I’m also moving in with my boyfriend and pretty much starting my independent life properly. This is the first summer I haven’t gone back home for the full summer (3 months!) and it feels a bit weird.
I miss my house and the fluffy rug in my room. I miss the massive beanbags my mum made herself (they’re the size of a small room honestly, absolutely MASSIVE). I miss my parents’ pink room and I miss our comfy living room with a fireplace in it. I miss my cat who’s the fluffiest, softest and cuddliest thing in the world. I miss my nephew Kennert who always knows how to put a smile on my face and I miss my nephew Karel who’s just the smallest cutest guy ever and who I have only met twice in my life due to living so far away. I miss my mum who’s the funniest smartest most caring person in the world and I miss my dad who’s the strongest kindest and most supportive person in my life. I miss my brother who makes stupid jokes but is someone I can always count on. I miss my friend Maris who’s always there for me throughout everything and I miss my friend Kaisa who I haven’t seen for months but who always makes me laugh until I cry. I miss all of these people and I miss my home town and the sea and the river being so close to my house. But here’s the thing… These people are still in my life. Although I’ve lived far away for 3 years I know they’re all still there. There for me just like I am still there for them. And I feel so lucky.
Appreciate the people in your life who love you just as much as you love them. These are the people that are going to be there for you through every step of your life, no matter how far you are. If you’re homesick and you miss them, then let them know. They’re only a phone call or a message away.
“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.“
– Helina x
This week was my last week of lectures at my university. Not just the last one before summer holidays but the last one for good. I will never be at a lecture as a BA (Hons) Marketing with Events Management student at University College Birmingham again and that is actually unbelievable.
When I first moved to England, I felt like I had years to take it all in and have tons of amazing experiences. I had no idea three years would go past so quickly. I honestly don’t know how I’ve gone through SO many exams and assignments already. It is actually mind blowing. At the time of deadlines it seems like life is pretty much falling apart but now looking back at it all, I am going to miss all of it. Although we all might hate going to university sometimes because some lectures or assignments stress you out, or you’re just feeling incredibly lazy in the mornings, once it all ends, you feel this weird kind of sadness. I’m not sad to graduate. I am actually really excited to graduate. But I am sad to leave this place behind. All the memories created throughout these three years are unforgettable. I have made friends for life that I will treasure forever. I have studied in a completely different language (my native language is Estonian) for three years and I cannot believe I’ve actually done it. I remember being so excited to move to the UK and to study in Birmingham. It honestly feels like that was a month ago. But somehow it is all going to be over now.
I am so thankful for my parents for believing in me and supporting me with following my dreams. I wouldn’t be where I am today without them and I am eternally grateful. I hope they’re proud of all of my accomplishments and who I have become as a person throughout these years because it is all thanks to them.
I am so thankful for the amazing friendships I’ve made through these years, I’m sure you guys know who you are, and I love you all so much. Some of you I met at the beginning of this journey, some in the middle and some in the end and I cannot thank you enough for being in my life now and forever. You’ve made these three years incredible.
I am so thankful for all of the opportunities gained through studying this degree. It helped me discover my passion in social media marketing and gave me a new direction. If I had to do it all again, I would, and I wouldn’t change a thing.
To all of the students graduating this year, just because something ends, doesn’t mean something better won’t begin. Take all these experiences with you and start a new chapter of your life.
– Helina x
There are so many friendships and relationships that just completely disappear. You see the person you used to be best friends with and you greet each other like you would greet just another acquaintance. Sometimes it’s hard. Sometimes we don’t even think about it. The disappearance of a friendship might be the best or worst thing that’s ever happened. Especially when the friendship meant a lot to you.
I have had my fair share of friendships as I’m 22 years old and when you are little you gain new friendships every day. There are some that I can’t even really remember but there are some that I sometimes look back on. I’m not going to name any names but the people reading this will know if it’s about them. I’ve only got good things to say about you so don’t worry haha!
My first proper friendship started in kindergarten. We were in the same group and we were inseparable. We ended up going to the same school TWICE in a row (1-4th grade in one school and 5-12th in another). I think we drifted apart when we got accepted to the new school where we spent our 5th-12th grade. It didn’t happen suddenly, I think it just happened over time. We made new friends and then we really never spoke again or visited each other again. I still remember her room and the garden where we used to hang out and it’s only good memories. It was nice to have someone to walk through life with, to apply to schools with and to just have fun with. I hope you know that you were one of the most important friends in my life.
Another best friend I had was as in love with Romeo & Juliet as I was. We cut out tops from bedsheets to make Romeo & Juliet fandom shirts. They were pretty horrible, but we loved them and I’m pretty sure I still have them stored somewhere. We would stay over at each other’s and stay up all night dancing and singing and just being ridiculous. That was one of the most fun friendships of my life and I wouldn’t change it for the world.
Sometimes it’s not just friendships that grow apart, it can be family members that you just don’t talk to anymore that often. Me & my brother used to be quite close. Although we argued (like brothers and sisters do), I knew he was my rock and I could always count on him. I remember one time that I got driven over by a motorcycle (I think it was attempting a backflip off my back or something ridiculous) and the first person I called to pick me up was my brother. Now he has his own family because he’s quite a bit older than me but I hope he knows that I love and miss him a lot, although we don’t speak that often anymore (look at us silly billies on the picture below, we are totally ridiculous but also very happy haha).
There are other friendships that I’m also sad that ended but if I talked about all of them, I would have to stay here typing all day and you’d basically be reading a book!
Growing apart doesn’t mean not caring. These people are still very important in my life. And I have the most amazing friends in my life now that I will make sure I will annoy for the rest of my life.
– Helina x