Here I’ll Stay.

I get questions all the time from people back at home in Estonia… Is Estonia no longer your home? Are you going to be British now? Are you ever going to come back to Estonia to live here permanently? It’s all a little bit weird for me because to me, Estonia is and always will be my home. It is where I grew up, it is where my family lives, it is the language I speak and it has made me the person I am today. Although I am currently living in the United Kingdom and it was my life-long dream, it doesn’t make Estonia and my family home any less my home.

When I was back at home in Estonia about a week ago, I went to the 12th Youth Song and Dance Celebration called Here I’ll Stay, which really made me proud of where I am from. It reminded me what our little country has gone through to be independent and what a big role every person in Estonia has had in this. Thousands of people singing and dancing together, laughing together. The rest of the world might see Estonians as quite ‘cold’ people but during that event, you could only feel warmth and love.

I’ll always be proud of where I’m from. And one day I’d love to move back to my little country again after travelling the rest of the world. And then I can say ‘Here I’ll stay’.

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– Helina x

Here I’ll Stay.

Explore. Improve. Create.

Hello, guys! I hope you’re having an amazing time whatever you are doing (unlike me who is ill in bed and has to take antibiotics). Today’s blog post is a little bit different. I hope to inspire people to either create something new, improve what they’ve already got or to go explore the world.

I have recently been getting messages suggesting that my YouTube channel and blogging career have inspired others to do the same. This is very surreal to me as I once was scared to start doing all of this in the first place. The very first YouTube videos I created were silly fandom videos (clips of celebrities edited to fit a song). I just liked the whole community of it and wanted to be more involved without people judging me. Very few people knew about this as I was very insecure about having a channel although I shouldn’t have been.

Years went past and I finally made my own personal YouTube channel about my life. More specifically, my travels. I’ve always loved exploring so I thought I’d share that passion with the world. I wanted to show people all the amazing places I’ve been to and all the experiences I’ve had. The feedback to this was lovely as I started sharing them on my personal social media accounts. More and more people started subscribing and keeping up to date with what I was doing, both on my channel and my blog. However, people wanted more, they wanted to see the person behind the camera and what she’s like.

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Then I took all the courage I had and started recording videos. Of myself. In my room. Actually speaking and looking at the camera. Something I never thought I’d have the courage to do. At first, of course I felt like the whole world was going to judge me. To my surprise, that did not happen. Everybody was so incredibly supportive, which made me keep going. I ended up vlogging my whole month of December and I still make videos every week to this day. I love this vlogger/blogger community and I have had some amazing opportunities offered to me, which were never possible before.

I guess the point of this story is for you to never give up (I know how cheesy that sounds). You might not want to become the next big YouTuber but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t pursue what YOU want to do. Forget about other people and the possibility of judgement because at the end of the day, what matters is your happiness. Do what you love. Improve what you’re working on or start something new. Or go explore the world of options. It is all there for you. Turn your dreams into reality – it is all up to you.

– Helina x

Explore. Improve. Create.