Here I’ll Stay.

I get questions all the time from people back at home in Estonia… Is Estonia no longer your home? Are you going to be British now? Are you ever going to come back to Estonia to live here permanently? It’s all a little bit weird for me because to me, Estonia is and always will be my home. It is where I grew up, it is where my family lives, it is the language I speak and it has made me the person I am today. Although I am currently living in the United Kingdom and it was my life-long dream, it doesn’t make Estonia and my family home any less my home.

When I was back at home in Estonia about a week ago, I went to the 12th Youth Song and Dance Celebration called Here I’ll Stay, which really made me proud of where I am from. It reminded me what our little country has gone through to be independent and what a big role every person in Estonia has had in this. Thousands of people singing and dancing together, laughing together. The rest of the world might see Estonians as quite ‘cold’ people but during that event, you could only feel warmth and love.

I’ll always be proud of where I’m from. And one day I’d love to move back to my little country again after travelling the rest of the world. And then I can say ‘Here I’ll stay’.

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– Helina x

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Here I’ll Stay.

Animals & Us.

I am a massive lover of animals. I even turned vegetarian a few years ago because of how much I love them. I honestly think animals deserve to be loved just as much as humans. They’re no different from us. Sometimes I even think that animals are more caring and loving than humans. They never judge you, they’re not malicious, they just get on with their every day life, yet sometimes, they do not get treated very well by us humans.

I recently went to an alpaca farm in Estonia with my mum and my boyfriend and it’s the most caring animal-loving place I’ve ever been to. The alpacas loved the people who took care of them and they loved them back just as much. They were treated as if they were their family members. All of the animals there had nicknames and special treats they got depending on what a specific animal liked. There were little goats with funny names like Obama, Putin and Donald Trump depending on their personalities and looks. The people who visited (including us) weren’t there to look at them while they are caged up somewhere with nowhere to run. No. They are kept in massive fields and visitors are free to run around with them, feed them and cuddle them. It’s honestly one of my favourite places in Estonia.

Unfortunately, that farm exists without the EU’s support as alpacas are considered pets. That’s why it is so important to support caring and loving organisations and farms that actually support these animals. I am so happy to give them any support they need, even it’s when I buy something from their little shops or pay the entrance fee when I go there every summer.

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Also, I visited Tallinn Zoo and I am so happy they’re renovating it and making the enclosures so much bigger. I’m not really a fan of many zoos as a lot of them cage up animals in the smallest cages and there’s no way that an animal could live their life to the fullest there. I mean imagine being locked up in one room for the rest of your life. When I visited Tallinn Zoo, we found out that they’re rebuilding the polar bear enclosure and the plan of it looks amazing! Currently the enclosure isn’t very big, so at the moment I feel pretty bad for them. But, due to people’s continuous support, they’re building an incredible area for them where they will be put together with other animals they would be found with in the wild. It’s awesome to see what us humans can do for animals that need us.

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That’s why I think it is important to support animals. And if you see animals being treated badly, raise your voice. You need to be the voice for animals that cannot speak for themselves.

Be kind, be humble. Make a difference. 

– Helina

Animals & Us.

Moving House.

Hello everyone! To most of you, this blog post won’t be that different. But for me life has completely transformed. I’ve moved house! I’m still in the United Kingdom but as I just finished my Bachelors Degree at University College Birmingham, I had to move out of my student accommodation. I’ve lived in student accommodation for three years and I can definitely say that’s enough for me. My future is now in Loughborough, where I will be studying for a Masters Degree in International Management.

And because my boyfriend is also a student at Loughborough University studying Civil Engineering, we thought why don’t both of us move out of student accommodation and rent a whole house for ourselves instead?

So here I am, sat on the floor of our living room (because I can’t find my long laptop charger and the plug is too far from the couch), hotspotting data from my phone (since we still don’t have any Wi-Fi), and thinking of how lucky I am.

When I first moved to England, I had no idea that I would end up in Loughborough. I wouldn’t even have dreamt of living in a house with someone I love after my Bachelors Degree. But here I am, happier than ever.

For the past few days, we’ve been putting together furniture and I can honestly tell you that putting together IKEA furniture is far harder than you think. If you think you can put together 10 big pieces of furniture in one day, think again. It’s taken us around 2-3 days to put together all furniture, we’ve had numerous nights of staying up until 5 am but it has been so worth it. I finally feel like home in England. It used to feel kind of like a stop along the way of my journey, but now it finally feels official. I live in the United Kingdom. Who would’ve ever guessed that. I cannot even express how happy I am. My lifelong dream has finally come true at the age of 22, and this is just the first step of my journey. I have so many more hopes and dreams, so many places still visit and so many experiences to still go through. I am so excited for everything that the future holds, and this is just the beginning.

So what’s better about living in a house rather than in student accommodation? Well, here’s a shortlist I can make in two minutes flat:

  1. No noise. Yes, neighbours can be noisy but we are quite lucky as so far we haven’t heard anything at all. It’s so nice to finally have peace and quiet.
  2. No parties. This kind of goes together with the first point but this also means that you can sleep whenever without anyone waking you up in the middle of the night. And this I’m so happy about!
  3. CLEAN KITCHEN / LIVING ROOM! Now this is by far my favourite thing about living in our own house. No filthy food in the sink, no mountains of unwashed dishes, no someone’s week-old leftovers, no stinky fridge, no oily cookers, no mess. I honestly cannot express to you how disgusting living with 10 people gets, especially when you like everything clean and tidy. I feel a thousand times more motivated and happy now that I don’t have to walk through a dirty kitchen every day. YAY!
  4. SO MUCH SPACE! Another very important part is the space. In student accommodation I had 2 little cupboards that barely fit any food inside. Plus, in the fridge I had just half a shelf as well as one shelf in the freezer. Now we’ve got the whole fridge and freezer to ourselves. There’s just something about having all that space to ourselves and knowing we are keeping it clean – not just throwing our leftovers in it.
  5. Just us. In our house, it’s just us. I honestly appreciate alone time so much. Most of the time in student accommodation, I’d run to the kitchen, cook something quickly, run back to my room, put my headphones in and ignore the world haha. Now, there’s just no need. Some of you might like having people around constantly but not me.

Overall, living in our own little house is amazing. We are only getting started with all the decorating but it already feels like home. I hope you guys are having a lovely time enjoying your time off from university, but life’s too short to waste days on doing nothing. Do what I did and make at least one of your dreams come true this summer.

Be kind, be humble, make it happen.

– Helina x

Moving House.

Trust.

Trust can be a funny thing. Some might say it’s an emotion. According to the Cambridge Dictionary, “to trust is to believe that someone is good and honest and will not harm you.” Trust does heavily rely on feelings and therefore it affects our emotions. Trust is important in all types of relationships in our lives, friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, parents, anyone. Trust is earned. Trust does not just pop up overnight like a Twitter notification. You don’t instantly start trusting your friend not to tell others your secrets and your partner to always treat you right. It happens overtime by learning more about each other. By building the relationship between each other. When I trust the people in my life, I don’t ever even second guess it. If I trust someone, I do so completely and utterly. I don’t go around trying to dig deep to find something. I don’t go searching for anything because once you trust someone, this wouldn’t even come to mind.

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However, if you were to find out that someone has betrayed your trust, it gets tricky. Some people seem to think that it’s easy to trust that person again and be 100% normal with them, but it’s a bit harder than that. Especially when you trusted them so completely that you would’ve never even guessed it. It’s even worse if they do something that affects how much (or little) you trust them again. So if you’re the person that’s messed up and you want to regain someone’s trust again… here’s what you should do. There’s not guarantee that this will help, but it’s always better to try and fail than to never try at all.

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1. Show them that you’re sorry.

If you treat it like an issue that’s not really that important, it will make the person feel like you don’t even care. So what’s the point of them even investing their feelings and emotions in you again? So make sure you’re sincerely sorry for whatever you did and make sure they know that. It always helps to apologise right away instead of arguing and making each other more upset. Sometimes an apology from the bottom of your heart that comes right away is all it takes.

2. Be kind.

Don’t get angry at them for not trusting you. I know this might just be an instant reaction but don’t do it. That’s just not going to help, at all. I’ve had instances in my life where the people betraying my trust got upset with me for not trusting them right away and even shifting the blame on me. This will just make matters worse. Be kind, be understanding. Don’t bring out past issues, don’t shift the blame. Be nice and accept it if you did something wrong.

3. Show them that they can trust you again.

Invest some of your feelings in them. Perhaps tell them something about you that nobody knows. Show them that you trust them just as much as they should trust you. Don’t repeat your mistakes. Don’t do things that would make them paranoid. Show them that you can be trusted and sooner or later they will.

Of course, you can’t always please everyone and you shouldn’t waste your whole life trying to prove yourself to someone.  But if you show them you’re sorry, that you’re kind to them and that you show them you can be trusted again, you won’t have to waste years to get their trust back. Trust is earned and if you treat people right, they will treat you right back.

Be kind, be humble.

– Helina x

Trust.

It’s coming to an end…

This week was my last week of lectures at my university. Not just the last one before summer holidays but the last one for good. I will never be at a lecture as a BA (Hons) Marketing with Events Management student at University College Birmingham again and that is actually unbelievable.

When I first moved to England, I felt like I had years to take it all in and have tons of amazing experiences. I had no idea three years would go past so quickly. I honestly don’t know how I’ve gone through SO many exams and assignments already. It is actually mind blowing. At the time of deadlines it seems like life is pretty much falling apart but now looking back at it all, I am going to miss all of it. Although we all might hate going to university sometimes because some lectures or assignments stress you out, or you’re just feeling incredibly lazy in the mornings, once it all ends, you feel this weird kind of sadness. I’m not sad to graduate. I am actually really excited to graduate. But I am sad to leave this place behind. All the memories created throughout these three years are unforgettable. I have made friends for life that I will treasure forever. I have studied in a completely different language (my native language is Estonian) for three years and I cannot believe I’ve actually done it. I remember being so excited to move to the UK and to study in Birmingham. It honestly feels like that was a month ago. But somehow it is all going to be over now.

I am so thankful for my parents for believing in me and supporting me with following my dreams. I wouldn’t be where I am today without them and I am eternally grateful. I hope they’re proud of all of my accomplishments and who I have become as a person throughout these years because it is all thanks to them.

I am so thankful for the amazing friendships I’ve made through these years, I’m sure you guys know who you are, and I love you all so much. Some of you I met at the beginning of this journey, some in the middle and some in the end and I cannot thank you enough for being in my life now and forever. You’ve made these three years incredible.

I am so thankful for all of the opportunities gained through studying this degree. It helped me discover my passion in social media marketing and gave me a new direction. If I had to do it all again, I would, and I wouldn’t change a thing.

To all of the students graduating this year, just because something ends, doesn’t mean something better won’t begin. Take all these experiences with you and start a new chapter of your life.

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– Helina x

It’s coming to an end…

Happy Easter: Estonian Edition!

Happy Easter everyone! I hope you’re enjoying your Easter holidays as much as I am! It’s so nice to be home surrounded by my family and feeling so loved and giving just as much love back. This Thursday we prepared for Easter! We decorated the house just a little bit and got the eggs ready for the morning. The tradition is to have a little competition in the evening to see whose egg cracks first by hitting them against each other. Sounds a bit weird and a bit crazy but also so much fun haha. This year I’m lucky enough to spend Easter with my mum, dad and my boyfriend – all together in Estonia. Instead of writing a massive blog post about our Easter here, I’ll show you it all in pictures. After this, go spend time with your family and tell them you love them and have the best Easter of your life.

– Helina x

Happy Easter: Estonian Edition!