Here I’ll Stay.

I get questions all the time from people back at home in Estonia… Is Estonia no longer your home? Are you going to be British now? Are you ever going to come back to Estonia to live here permanently? It’s all a little bit weird for me because to me, Estonia is and always will be my home. It is where I grew up, it is where my family lives, it is the language I speak and it has made me the person I am today. Although I am currently living in the United Kingdom and it was my life-long dream, it doesn’t make Estonia and my family home any less my home.

When I was back at home in Estonia about a week ago, I went to the 12th Youth Song and Dance Celebration called Here I’ll Stay, which really made me proud of where I am from. It reminded me what our little country has gone through to be independent and what a big role every person in Estonia has had in this. Thousands of people singing and dancing together, laughing together. The rest of the world might see Estonians as quite ‘cold’ people but during that event, you could only feel warmth and love.

I’ll always be proud of where I’m from. And one day I’d love to move back to my little country again after travelling the rest of the world. And then I can say ‘Here I’ll stay’.

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– Helina x

Here I’ll Stay.

My journey to becoming a YouTube Partner…

Becoming a YouTuber wasn’t really ever something I had in mind. It all started around 6 years ago when I started making fandom videos. YouTube wasn’t this huge money-making industry for influencers like it is nowadays. It was for likeminded people to make any content they like. It was a very supportive community, especially in the ‘fandom’ section. I used to make videos about my favourite celebrities with my friends and it was SO MUCH FUN! Click here if you want to see some of the videos that I’ve kept on that channel. I had around one thousand subscribers on that channel and it was amazing. I was meeting people online who liked editing videos just as much as I did and we all supported each other. I loved it!

However, since I was growing older and life got more busy, I stopped making those videos. I made a video every few months until I completely stopped. My latest video on that channel was posted 2 years ago. That’s when I discovered the other side of YouTube. I started following people like Zoella and PointlessBlog and Marcus Butler and Sprinkle of Glitter and I felt like I wanted to be part of the same community as them. I wanted to vlog and look back at the videos and the memories. But since I was too nervous, I never wanted to show myself in any videos or talk in them, so I started posting travelling videos. I would edit videos just like before but of clips of my own. That’s where it all began. My journey to becoming a YouTube partner.

The 20th of August 2016 was the day that I uploaded my first video that I properly featured in and oh boy was I nervous! I did this with my boyfriend because I was too scared on my own. To my surprise, the feedback I got was SO positive so I thought I would start uploading normal sit-down-videos. That’s where it all began. More people started subscribing and watching my videos and my following across all my social media platforms increased. I was so happy to still do something that I loved (editing) years ago but now being even more involved. I cannot tell you enough how many opportunities this has brought to me. I am working closely with brands that I love and I get invited to the most amazing events for bloggers and businesses. This is something I could’ve never dreamt of but I am so happy that this is my reality. YouTube also encouraged me to apply to be a UCBlogger and here I am now. YouTube and blogging are the things I am most passionate about and I am so happy to have this as my job / hobby. Both of these platforms influenced my final year research project, which I did about using social media as a marketing tool for businesses. I honestly couldn’t imagine my life without doing this, something I love so much.

I hope you have the courage to follow your passion. Don’t be scared of what others may think because at the end of the day, you’re in charge of your life so make the most of it.

– Helina x

My journey to becoming a YouTube Partner…

Happy Easter: Estonian Edition!

Happy Easter everyone! I hope you’re enjoying your Easter holidays as much as I am! It’s so nice to be home surrounded by my family and feeling so loved and giving just as much love back. This Thursday we prepared for Easter! We decorated the house just a little bit and got the eggs ready for the morning. The tradition is to have a little competition in the evening to see whose egg cracks first by hitting them against each other. Sounds a bit weird and a bit crazy but also so much fun haha. This year I’m lucky enough to spend Easter with my mum, dad and my boyfriend – all together in Estonia. Instead of writing a massive blog post about our Easter here, I’ll show you it all in pictures. After this, go spend time with your family and tell them you love them and have the best Easter of your life.

– Helina x

Happy Easter: Estonian Edition!

Bad Days…

Sometimes bad things happen. Actually, bad things happen every day. Whether it’s your sandwich falling on the floor, getting a bad grade, breaking your phone screen or something more serious. But it is not the end of the world, I promise you.

Recently, my boyfriend and I were on our way to the London Stansted airport to get on our flight back to Estonia and we were beyond excited. The day was all running smoothly, we got a cheeky little McDonalds meal on the way and we were happy to be going to our hotel for the day on a lovely sunny day. We planned on sleeping at a hotel near the airport and we paid for the car to stay there for two weeks while we’re gone. But things didn’t go quite according to plan…

We were 30 minutes away from the hotel when we noticed that the engine temperature was flashing bright red and was on maximum. First of all, we thought it might be a mistake as the light disappeared but it came back in a minute and the temperature meter did not go back down anymore. That’s when we knew something was wrong and we looked for the fastest exit from the motorway so we could stop somewhere. We turned off to a road that we had never been before and stopped the car. When we got out and looked under the bonnet it was all full of smoke. UH-OH! Needless to say, we were shocked and not entirely sure what had caused it so it was time to have a million phone calls to get it sorted. We waited three hours in the middle of nowhere, amongst chickens and cows somewhere called Godmanchester, until someone came to have a look. Unfortunately, there was absolutely nothing that he could do as some part of the radiator pipe had completely burst and it was unfixable at the spot. At that moment we knew, the day was not going to be as we expected at all. We knew the car had to be taken away but we had to make it to the hotel to catch our flight early in the morning, which made the day even worse – the worry of not actually being able to go back home to Estonia. Two hours later the truck that took our car away arrived. We unloaded the car of our suitcases and said bye to our car, which was quite weird as you have to give away your car and your keys to a complete stranger. Honestly, none of this what we expected. But life happens and sometimes it’s not that great. Sometimes it’s pretty horrible.

Although the day consisted of 6 hours of sitting down in the middle of nowhere, worried with nothing to do at all, there were some good parts. It was so sunny throughout the whole time so we just sat on the grass on the side of the road and enjoyed the flowers and the animals around us. We listened to songs and sang at the top of our lungs. We were never sad or angry at anyone because we had each other the whole time to keep each other company. To be honest, those 6 hours weren’t that bad after all. I was with someone that I love on a warm sunny day, resting on the grass with the countryside around us. And that, despite all the worries, sounds pretty perfect to me.

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Also, after all this drama, the company dealing with this car drama ordered us a taxi that they paid for to take us to the hotel. YAY! When we arrived, we saw the amazingly beautiful hotel and everyone there was lovely. We ordered the much deserved room service (as we hadn’t had a sip of water or even a bite of food for over 6 hours) and enjoyed every bit of it. We even had baths to try and relax before our early flight. And although instead of spending the day at the hotel and only being there for 5 hours (sleeping for 2 hours), the time we spent there was wonderful. It’s not about what happens throughout the day, it’s about the people who get through it with you.

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I hope you can find something good in every day no matter the worries and troubles in your life. Whether it’s a yummy chocolate bar you had or a hug from a friend. There’s always something to be grateful for, and remember, in a few months you probably won’t even remember this day that wasn’t that great. Stay positive. Stay happy. Stay humble.

– Helina x

Bad Days…

Magical Christmas Market

Hello, everyone! I hope you’re doing well and I also hope you’re getting just as excited for Christmas as I am! Have you gotten your Christmas tree out? Have you bought and wrapped your presents? Let me know because I’d love to hear!

This time I wanted to write a little bit about the Birmingham German Market. I have never really participated in the German Market’s festivities nor bought much from it, as to me it seems way too chaotic and to get to a stall seems like a huge mission. This year, however, my best friend Debby convinced me to go and spend some time at the market and I loved it so much! If you’re like me and you’d rather stay away and look at the market from a far, then here are some tips because honestly, if you don’t go, you’re missing out!

1. Pick a Good Time

There’s nothing worse than ‘going with the flow’ of people. It makes me feel so stressed when you just have to move with a crowd of people instead of walking at your own pace and stopping at your favourite stalls. Timing is super essential! Obviously, as you can imagine, the weekends are the busiest so I would stay away if you’re not one who deals well with being in massive crowds. We went on a week day around lunch time and although there was still a big amount of people, we could walk around, look at stalls and pick up our favourite goodies.

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2. Relax

This might be an obvious one but just relax and forget about all the people around you. Focus on all the nice bits of the market – after all it’s going to be gone after Christmas! Look at the decorations and all the amazing things they have to offer. Or go with a friend and enjoy your time together with them! There’s nothing more fun than grabbing some Christmas snacks with your friends and laughing until your stomach hurts.

3. Favourite Places

Some of my favourite places are at the Craft Market as they have the yummiest veggie options! Balti chips and vegetarian pizza (right at the entrance coming from the library) are mine and Debby’s favourite! If you’d rather have something sweet, they offer crepes and waffles, which smell incredible even when you just walk past the stalls. The one thing that’s not in the Craft Market is the fudge. You can choose from so many different flavours and they all taste amazing! It’s located on New Street on the left side if you enter it from Victoria Square. Definitely try some! Also, don’t forget to go on the wheel! I recommend going at night because seeing the lights of the beautiful city is amazing.

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I hope this helped you if you’re feeling a bit anxious or just a bit hesitant about going and enjoying the market. Trust me, it can be stressful for anyone but it’s completely worth it!

– Helina x

 

Magical Christmas Market